Kleenex and Curses

I woke up late today, my eyes heavy from all those tears. I asked the maids to buy me another pillow because the one I have is all wet and ruined! I have no motivation to wake up as my sweet baby girl Iphigenia is no longer with me. I'm so very angry at Agamemnon! Just wait till he gets home.... Anyways, I was reading today's newsletter and it had a phone number for a psychiatrist. I think that perhaps I should call. I don't think it's healthy to harbor feelings of hate towards my husband even though he deserves them. I also don't think the Gods would approve of my feelings of ill intent. Oh how I hate him so! She was my sweet little girl who loved me...not like that Electra. She cares more for her father than for me. How dare she! I gave her life! I nursed her and changed her diapers, and gave her everything her heart desired. Yet, now she is distant from me because she believes that I loved Iphigenia the most. Silly sibling rivalries. Well, I guess I must confess, I do love Iphigenia more and I would do anything to have her back.....

The maids brought me breakfast...it tastes so plain, my Iphigenia would often bring it to me and she would lie in my bed and ask me to tell her stories. How I miss her. My love, my companion, my dearest friend. I cannot believe you were taken from me...My angel, will I never have you back?

It is late at night now, I fell asleep again, I feel so depressed! I think I have started losing weight, my dresses fit so much looser now. Not that I want to be in shape for that horrible husband of mine! Whatever am I going to do? I love my daughter as much as I have come to despise my husband. How can I ever lie asleep with him again? How can I trust him to take care of me if he was willing to sacrifice his own flesh and blood? Forgive me, Gods from above, but my heart is no longer his! I will find someone better...someone who loves me and my children. Someone who won't sacrifice me or my children in order to receive some aid by winds! Someone who will love me and stay by my side...